god is leading me..

Everyone know that i decided to study food science....but then alot of things happened...

the day of orientation,i found out that my dad cant afford the fees,he is asking me to go for work for a year...at that moment,i was pissed off...
not because of asking me to work ,is because they told me at the very last minute..i discussed with them around january about the fees,the acommodation,transport and so on,they just tell me to study hard..so i prepared everything,quit my job and on that day,i heard this news...my heart broke...i just dont understand why they love to break my dreams at the very last minute...alot of records already...i was pissed off...
somemore,last year i decided to just work and they stopped me...they asked me to get a degree...and i found it,they asked me to work...i was pissed off..

Then,i pray to god...what can i do now...

after a week,my aunt brought me to a consultant. He told me about medicine,dentistry and pharmacy in indonesia,russia and so on...but the most satirical thing is, they didnt even say no for my tuition fees,accommdation,live expenses....
for food science,70+k...they are talking this and that...life expenses all,i have to pay myself..
for dentistry,135+k,no objection at all...life expenses,i dont have to pay it myself...
i dont understand,is all that just an acting? or just want to warn me?
they dont know anything about me,but they think they are..im losing faith to them..
i know this is not good and is wrong,but i cant help it..its losing faith...i can only believe in god now...

so i chose indonesia because is nearer and is cheaper...
i just took the entrance exam last sunday,and the result will be out on monday.i hope everything gonna be fine..
im so tired for all these...If i didnt get a place in indon,i will just go work...exhausted...thats y i like to do my stuff by myself,no discussion have to make,just decide and go for it...

i want to backpack to somewhere in malaysia with friends...just hang out,and have fun...probably melacca will be great,love melacca...

i can see in the whole process,god is leading me...dentistry is something i wanted to do last time..so mayb god just want me to try out something he wants me to do...i love him so much, and can only depends on him now and always..thank you so much,God...